birthday....

what birthday is? its meaning has been changing from time to time..for me in particular ^_^ although its main meaning remains the same...

when i was a lil girl, b'day is all about getting lotsa gifts, eating yummy food and of course being treated as a b'day girl...n if i think about that now...how fun it was sometimes, nothing but fun..no worries at all at that time ^_^
i always woke up pretty early, wandering around the house, hoping everyone would hug and congratulate me with some gifts...and of course b'day also went well with bday cake...and blowing the candles hahaha. I thought..the more candles on the cake i could blow..it showed the stronger and bigger i was hahaha...

but..i've never had my b'day party like others...though sometimes i really wanted my mum to prepare one for me....what my mum said was... "ulang taun kan ga mesti pesta? ngumpul dan makan bareng keluarga adja udah lebih dari cukup"

and...when i was a teenager...bday party is all about going out with friends (=traktir" atau tepatnya ditodong supaya nraktir)...having dinner together ...chatting all about out loud, staying overnite at friends' place or hotel, making some pics, cheering each other, making some silly things...throwing the bday cake to the bday girl or boy on the face, playing some 'lemparän telur busuk, susu basi dll"..but somehow..we really enjoyed that ...and we could do nothing but smile, because...they always said...ülang taun ga boleh marah lho...mau diapain juga hahaha" (guys...miss those sumatra resto moments lho....hahahaha...)

or when you had boyfriend or girlfriend...b'day is something with a romantic candle light dinner or at least "special dinner", you will prepare special place and special gift for them... so...you must show how you treat them as your someone special....with some surprises, a big bunch of flowers, nice card and nice words, gift and of course...attention and passion....to make them happy and show how you love and remember that it's a special day for them...love says everything, doesn't it????

and now...birthday...for me is...thanking how you are still blessed with having people around you, how you are remembered...thanking how your family and friends still remember your day by sending text, email, msg or make phone calls; just to congratulate you and even sing on the phone for you?
just to remember that...will make your day even brighter..although 'there is still some spiders hanging on the wall?' and b'day gift is something that has been put aside at this time....it doesn't even matter if you don't get any today, no dinner or anything....it's (quite) ok haha

it may be something that simply the same like another ordinary day. perhaps the difference is ...when you get more texts, phone calls, message or email. and more hugs :p but still...no matter what..bday is always something special...something different in its own way..for each person...

i still remember my friend's dad always said, "kalian ini, namanya juga anak muda, ulang taun kok makan", traktir", seneng". ulang taun itu mbok ya harusnya dirayain dengan refleksi, sholat, dzikir bersyukur kalo kalian masih di kasih hari ulang taun. kan ulang taun itu mengingatkan kita bahwa jatah umur kita berkurang setaun lho. bukan bertambah setaun"

i think he is right, to some extent....and maybe if i were him at his age, i will think the same...

anyway...thanks everyone for today..much appreciated...