merry xmas ...

time to go and celebrate....

......joy and peace to you and yours this holiday season

happy xmas and happy holidays, everyone....

Funny how small thing creates enormous changes

It’s only a one sentence text message
but really…

it did boost my day =)

(got it from one of free e-card website hahaha)

moms are like cookies...
they come in every size and shape..
they can usually make you feel better..
and they're sweet and warm like you..

for my mom...happy mother's day...dec 22, 05
love you, as always...and zillion thanks for all that you are...

to let go and to forfeit...
just like michaela said...

will it make anything better? perhaps..

"katanya cinta? kenapa pergi?"
"katanya mau? kenapa nolak?"
"katanya pengen? kenapa mundur?"
"katanya percaya? kenapa nagih?"
dan dgn sejuta "katanya" juga ga bakal ngebuat situasi better koq..

well..you'll not always get what you want, won't ya?
at least..no more stay awake til late at nite, no more long and puzzling conversation, no more hope, no more wish, no more lies..no more...waiting in exhale...

*dan kalo nanya ama orang, pasti jawabannya tuh: "g bilang juga apa...."
taela....kalo nyesel dateng duluan, kita ga bakal ngapa"in lagi dari pertama dunks?
yeea yeaaaaa yeaaaaaa.....

thanks for inspiring this writing...

ternyata....

(kadang")
ternyata manusia itu bisa lebih ga berperasaan dibanding binatang ya?
ternyata manusia itu bisa lebih tegaan dibanding binatang ya?
ternyata manusia itu bisa lebih ga bisa diajak ngomong dibanding binatang ya?

ternyata manusia itu bisa jauuuuuuuuuuuuuh lebih kasar dibanding binatang ya..
ternyata manusa itu bisa lebih kaku dibanding binatang ya
ternyata manusia itu sering berlaku seperti binatang ya...
ternyata manusia itu lebih $*&@#^ dibanding binatang ya...

" i know it's always going to be like this"

Hot Xmas..

xmas is just around the corner...i start to have this phobia...
damn..i hate end of year.. i hate the beginning of the year, too
i hate december n january...it's always freaking me out for the past few years..
besides...it's my first xmas in this hot summer xmas...

xmas where the gum trees grow...
there is no frost and there is no snow
xmas in australia is hot...
cold and frosty is what it's not
when the bloom of the jacaranda tree is here
xmas time is near....

while in my mind...xmas is something to do with snow, xmas tree, white xmas, cold weather, thick clothes, gifts, hugs, mistletoe, kisses and hmm xmas carol everywhere...

geez..all i want for xmas is going home...at least i have some comfort to kill this freaking moment away...

u have to choose...

ujan" gini..tiba" adja g keinget omongan Michaela..(salah satu murid g) waktu salah satu temennya nangis sambil whinging...

u have to choose.
if u wanna cry, then stop talking...
if u wanna talk, then stop crying...
cause u can't do two things at the same time....besides..noone will understand or listen..

bener ya...melakukan hal yang sama pada waktu bersaman memang berat.....in the end...
we (still) gotta choose.......and forfeit one of them.....

being dominant

they say....i like being dominant...from the way i speak....from how i ask questions....they can tell from almost everything i do....

ga pernah nyadar akan hal itu....ga pernah tau kalo emang g demen jd dominan. tapi memang dari dulu, g seakan dibiasakan untuk jadi dominan. terutama dalam hubungan. di mana sebagian mantan" g selalu ngasih space berlebihan buat g utk selalu jd dominan. untuk menyerahkan 'kekuasaan' buat g.

kadang g menikmati walaupun ga jarang g capek....banget...
kayak skrg ini....pdhl baru g rasain lagi di mana hampir belakangan ini udah menguap rasanya perasaan ini. it feels good though.

but still...i want the mutual feeling... =)
tsaaaaaaaah.......

some words from John Legend...

at times we get sick in love
it seems like we argue everyday...

I know i misbehaved
and u made yr mistake
and we both still got room left to grow
and though love sometimes hurt
i still put u first
and we'll make this thing work
but i think we should take it slow

we're just ordinary people, we don't know which way to go...
coz...we're just ordinary people...

this ain't movie
nor fairy tale
and it gets more confusing everyday.. (yes...EVERYDAY!!!!!!!!)
sometimes it's like heaven sent
then we head back to hell again...
we kiss and we make up on the way

i hang up your call
we rise and we fall
and we feel like just walking away
as our love advances
we take second (perhaps zillion) changes
though it's not a fantasy
i still want u to stay...

maybe we'll live and we learn
maybe we'll crash and burn
maybe u'll stay and u'll leave
maybe u'll return
maybe another fight
maybe we won't survive
but maybe we'll grow...
we never know baby...
U and I...

*well, John...u're rite...u're so damn rite...
we really dunno....coz we're ordinary people.....*

pf: BIG apology, dear... i did big mistakes 2nite.....yesterday....and the days b4....

Something Missing (John Mayer)

I'm not alone, I wish I was.
Cause then I'd know, I was down because
I couldn't find, a friend around
To love me like, they do right now.
They do right now.

I'm dizzy from the shopping malls
I searched for joy, but I bought it all
It doesn't help the hunger pains and a thirst
I'd have to drown first to ever satiate

Something's missing
And I don't know how to fix it
something's missing
And I don't know what it is
At all

When autumn comes, it doesnt ask.
It just walks in, where it left you last.
And you never know, when it starts
Until there's fog inside the glass around your summer heart

I can't be sure that this state of mind, is not of my own design
I wish there was an over the counter test, for loneliness.
For loneliness like this.

Something's missing
And I don't know how to fix it
Something's missing
And I don't know what it is
No I don't know what it is
Something's different
And i don't know what it is
No I don't know what it is

--soundtrack mood g malem ini--

Xmas Play n We're done...

rasanya baru kemarin kami bertemu anak". rasanya baru kemarin kami menghabiskan waktu bersama..dari senin sampai jumat. dan beberapa acara di luar sekolah lainnya...

dan kemarin....waktu itu telah tiba. setelah kami boleh menebar senyum karena penampilan anak" yang memuaskan ...yup! they did it! dengan senyum dan kepuasan di wajah masing" karena mereka berhasil mempertunjukkan di depan orang tua masing" kalau mereka cukup 'besar' untuk mementaskan sebuah drama berdurasi setengah jam ...

walau sempat terjadi kekacauan. ada yang kostumnya tiba" rusak di tengah"...ada yang tiba" ngambek dan tidak mau ikut serta....tapi overall..they did it well....and we're so proud of them...

setelah afternoon tea dan foto" tentu saja....and that's it....anak" resmi lepas dari kami. dan tentu saja kami harus rela..melepaskan mereka yang telah menemani hari" kami selama kurang lebih setaun ini ...thanks for being fuel to our soul, friends..

it's not good bye my dear friends....it's a see you later...

and welcome to grade one.....you all deserve that...