blue...
hari ini....g ngerasa blue bgt...ga ngerti deh napa...semaleman ga bisa tidur...tanpa tau napa itu...pokoknya...what a nite deh semalem...mungkin udah saatnya g berubah..selama ini g ngerasa kalo g tuh ga ada apa2nya..idup ga ada artinya..kelam..mendung...aach!!!

tiba", g jadi takut ndiri, takut gagal, takut coba, takut semuanya....dark cloud surrounds me...serem ga seh? makanya kudu bisa misahin tuh pikirin aneh ndiri n pikiran yg realistis...wlp kadang susah nya bgt bgt bgt..

kalo udah gini...g suka bgt baca..merenung...n jeleknya neh :( end upnya g malah nangis deh hahahha...tulul emang yach. n g paling suka denger lagunya Sarah Mclahlan yg angels...gile ...makin berasa deh blue-ku....

ada quote yg bikin g makin 'blue' jg hahaha...

Love

If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you,
be gentle with yourself.
There is nothing wrong with you.
Love just didn't choose to rest in the other person's heart.

If you find someone else in love with you and you don't love him,
feel honored that love came and called at your door,
but gently refuse the gift you cannot return.
Do not take advantage, do not cause pain.

How you deal with love is how you deal with you,
and all our hearts feel the same pains and joys,
even if our life and ways are different.

If you fall in love with another, and he falls in love with you,
and the love chooses to leave, do not try to reclaim it or to assess blame.
Let it go. There is a reason and there is a meaning.
You will know in time.

Remember that you don't choose love. Love chooses you.
All you can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes into our life.
Feel the way it fills you to overflowing,
then reach out and give it away.

Give it back to the person who brought it alive in you.
Give it to others who deem it poor in spirit.
Give it to the world around you in any way you can.

There is where many lovers go wrong.
Having been so long without love, they understand love only as a
need.

They see their hearts as empty places that will be filled by love,
and they begin to look at love as something that flows to them rather than from them.

The first blush of new love is filled to overflowing,
but as their love cool,
they revert to seeing their love as need,
they cease to be someone who generates love and instead become someone who seeks love.

Remember this, and keep it to your heart.
Love has its own time, its own seasons, and its own reason
for coming and going.

You cannot bribe it or coerce it,
or reason it into saying.

You can only embrace it when it arrives
and give it away when it comes to you.
But if it chooses to leave from your heart
or from the heart of your lover,
there is nothing you can do and there is nothing
you should do.

Love has always been, and will always be a mystery.
Be glad that it came to live for a moment, in your life.
If you keep your heart open, it will come again ...

makanya...skrg g mesti bener2 tau apa itu hidup...banyak yg blm g kerjain tp byk jg yg g keilangan..ah...kalo gitu...maunya apa sih g? =) emang hidup itu misteri yg akan terus kita cari mpe kapanpun...n itu kyk adventure yg terus kita treasure in our lifetime..tul ga?